I can’t say goodbye

Not yet.

I suppose I’m not ready. The oceans kept us apart for years, and this should somehow make the loss a little bit bearable. But it hasn’t. All I can think of is how I’ve been missing you. Now I’m going to miss you for the rest of my life.

I’m sorry if I had disappointed you. I’m sorry if I said something that might had caused you pain. I’m sorry for not trying hard enough. I’m sorry for not being there. I know it’s selfish, but I can’t bear to see you gone.